Pick Me Up

Girl: Will you pick me up if I ever fell down?
Boy: No.
Girl: Would you wipe away the tears when I’m sad?
Boy: Never.
Girl: Will you still love me when I look my worst?
Boy: Nope.
Girl: At least you’re honest …
Boy: I wouldn’t pick you up if you fell because I would catch you before you even hit the ground. I wouldn’t wipe away your tears because I’ll make sure there’s nothing for you to ever be sad about. I wouldn’t love you when you look your worst because that’s impossible. You always look you’re best, even when you think you don’t. I love you more than anything, remember that.

(Source : Tumblr)

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You're amazing. Enough said,

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Well Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat, you're wrong.

I'm lucky I'm in love with my bestfriend. Lucky to have been where I have been. Well, Jason Mraz, Colbie Caillat, you're wrong. But this is a very good song. I love it. But still, it is not lucky to fall for your bestfriend! It is not, it is not, it is not! Especially when you're bestfriend is in love with someone else.

This is why I love Nathan Green. And this is why I love Nate Green. He'll never hurt my heart. Never.

Dah lah cute. Dengan mata dia tu, senyum dia lagi. Manalah aku tak cair en? Hehe, tak payahlah sibuk-sibuk nak tahu siapa Nate tu. He's mine :D Oh, tiba-tiba blank. Tak ingat nak tulis apa (lagi) Give me a moment, I'm searching for a refresh button on my brain. Ah, akhirnya dapat ingat.

Petang tadi, last day orientasi untuk budak form 1. Maksudnya, kira last day lah jugak kitorang menjadi facilitators. Sorry tapi tahun ni punya orientasi memang boring. But there's a few kid who said, "Akak ni cantik and baiklah." Haha. Thank you dik, thank you. Hep, hep, tu bukan topik yang kita nak cerita. Tapi ada kena-mengenalah jugak. Beberapa hari yang lepas, uh padahal sekolah baru start. Pembetulan : Dua hari yang lepas, feeling tu ada datang balik. Macam mana, sebab apa, feeling apa? kita tak nak share dekat sini. Benda tu personal and yup, agak memalukan. Jadi kalau tak malu, tanyalah. Tapi pasal feeling tu, mesti korang akan faham punya. KOT. Kalau baca post ni sampai habis lah. Petang tadi pun, feeling tu still ada lagi, sebelum *zapp* tercalar. Here,

Tadi ada berborak dengan Kak Ellya, sampai keluar topik 'itu'. Banyak jugaklah benda yang kita share dengan dia. Lepas tu, dia mintak teman pergi beli air pulak. Di atas jalan bertar itulah kami berjalan. Ada yang pelik ke sebab tadi kata nak beli air tapi sampai jalan atas jalan bertar semua. Kitorang pergi 7-11 sebenarnya. Kantin tutup sudah *sigh* Memanglah kena seberang jalan dekat luar sekolah tu. Tapi Hanif ada pulak berdiri dekat luar. Dia nak pergi tuisyen tapi sempat pulak en? Nak main tunggu-tunggu semua. Gatal! Terpaksa kita tunggu Kak Ellya habis cakap dengan dia. Lamalah jugak. Kak Ellya tak habis-habis tanya semua orang "Comelkan dia? Comelkan dia?" Dia tu kita okay. Bukan Hanif. Sambil cubit-cubit pipi kiri, kanan dan kedua-duanya. Mahu bengkak jugak. Tak tahu prefer yang mana, kena cubit pipi or kena poke. Hahaha. Tengok orang yang buat eh?

Oh, sempat wish Hanif sekali. Jap, sebelum tu lagi dah wish. Salah-salah. But still, HAPPY BIRTHDAY. Tiba-tiba ada terkeluar satu topik perbualan hangat yang menyebabkan satu soalan terpacul keluar daripada mulutku. Dan jawapan Hanif pula bagaikan halilintar yang berdesing di telinga aku. Fine, I confess. Mata memang berkaca lepas tu. Mana taknya. Tengah sedih-sedih katak. Nak jugak an? Hahaha. Tapi takpelah. Kata nak lepaskan kan? Nak masuk sekolah asrama kan? Takpelah. Hehe. Insya-Allah kita okay. Like I always said before, Stupid Hormones!

Terima kasih Kak Ellya sebab sudi dengar cerita-cerita Afieqah. Terima kasih Amira sebab suruh Afieqah jangan sedih-sedih. Terima kasih Nasuha sebab bagi Afieqah lagi satu nickname baru kan? Dulu apa, Setiausaha eh? Haha. Suka suka. Terima kasih Izyan sebab jadi photographer tak bergaji hari ni. Tapi sorry sebab Afieqah tak cerita lagi. Besok eh? Kita cerita panjang-panjang sikit. Kaw kaw punya. Terima kasih budak budak form 1 yang puji-puji akak tadi. Hehe. Si kembang kembang kucup semalu ni. Haih.

Oh by the way, 96% budak Form 4 dah dapat kelas pagi tadi. Ha'ah. 96% je weh. For sure nanti kena rombak balik kan? Eeh, tak minat sangatlah classmate baru. And Amira, kita sekarang cuma schoolmate je. Takde lagi seatmate nor classmate. Huhu. Itulah hari ni, 5 Januari 2011. Memang terombang-ambing kita jadinya.

It's playing on repeat. Pat Benetar, you're awesome.

We are young, heartache to heartache we stand. No promises no demands. Love is a battlefield.

-Pat Benetar

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You're amazing. Enough said,

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Tiga segi.

"Berbulan-bulan mereka bersekolah di sekolah yang sama namun mereka tidak pernah bertegur siapa. Malahan, mereka kurang menyedari kewujudan satu sama lain. Bagaimanakah mereka mula berkenalan? Sepucuk surat. Surat yang dikirim dan diterima pada tiap-tiap minggu. Walaupun si penerima tidak mengetahui siapakah si pengirim, pada mulanya. Hanya di atas kertas-kertas itulah mereka berbalas-balas. Tetapi, tidak begitu banyak isinya. Sekadar bertanya khabar itu sahaja. Apabila terbongkarnya rahsia si pengirim, dia masih tidak dapat melupakan reaksi muka si penerima.

Hubungan mereka mula rapat sebagai seorang kawan beberapa bulan selepas itu. Itupun disebabkan oleh kawan-kawan mereka. Dan tanpa disedari, salah satu hati mula tertarik. Sayang seribu kali sayang, jika tangan yang ditepuk sebelah tangan, masakan ia bisa berbunyi. Mulalah, si perempuan cuba memikat hati si lelaki. Benar, si hawa yang ada menaruh hati pasa si adam. Tidak dapat dinafikan, tiadanya pengalaman membuat diri dibalut rasa malu. Di mulut kata lain, di hati kata lain. Tambahan pula, faktor usia yang sedang sibuk menimba ilmu menambahkan salah satu alasannya untuk berhenti mengharap.

Siapa sangka begitu susah sekali untuk fikiran si perempuan itu untuk melupakan tentang si dia. Bila dia percaya tiada lagi perasaan untuk si lelaki, si lelaki berjaya mencuit hatinya lagi. Acap kali si perempuan cuba melarikan diri tetapi acap kali itu jugalah dia gagal. Berbulan-bulan si perempuan menguburkan perasaannya. Si lelaki pula bendul orangnya. Tidak berjaya menangkap situasi yang berlaku.

Satu hari, si perempuan mendapat tahu satu rahsia besar. Si lelaki ada menyimpan hati untuk seorang lain. Ya, memang luluh hatinya. Dalam masa yang sama dia gembira. Gembira kerana dia tidak akan lagi terseksa. Berterusan. Bukan selama ini dia tidak tahu mengenai perihal si lelaki itu. Cuma dia tidak mahu mempercayainya. Sejak itu, perasaan si perempuan terhadap si lelaki itu cuba dikikisnya secepat yang mungkin.

Entah bagaimana, hatinya tercuit kembali. Perempuan yang diminati si lelaki itu juga nampaknya seperti meminati orang lain. Mampukah si perempuan meloloskan diri daripada cinta tiga segi ini? Masih adakah harapan untuk mereka? Harapnya tiada. Kerana, faktor usia yang masih muda. Tetapi jika benar wujudnya jodoh, suatu hari nanti mereka pasti akan bersatu."

Bersatu? Macam Am dan Ain? Farish dan Farisya? Daniel dan Alunie? Zain dan Aleeya? Hah, amik kau. Semua character keluar. Woah, sinopsis ni macam best. Tapi ayat dia pelik-pelik sikit. Entahlah. Hmm, tak pernah jumpa site yang ada offer baca novel online. Ho, Popular bookstore, untunglah kamu nampaknya ya. Hehehe. Eh, Penulisan2U kan ada. Kira cantiklah tu. Apa pun, tak jumpa source sinopsis ni lah. Haih. Ho, bila baca balik sinopsis ni macam, jiwangnya. Siapa yang main BINGO waktu orientasi semalam, kalau nak signature free, mintaklah. Kan ada satu kotak untuk suka membaca novel jiwang. Meh meh, tak payah susah-susah nak cari lagi dah :P

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You're amazing. Enough said,

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Last post of 2010,

Terlebih dahulu, mari kita flashback balik apa events yang telah berlaku sepanjang tahun ni.

Muhd. Aqmar Hamizan was born
Ini first nephew kita tapi anak buah yang kedua. Lahir pada bulan Januari di Singapura. Haha. I nicknamed him Benjamin Button *wink* He's Kak Fau's little bundle of joy.

PMR 2010
Peristiwa yang kasi effect dup dap dup dap dekat budak-budak form 3 seMalaya. 4 hari ++ kot hidup kitorang kurang tenang. Tapi bila pengawas kutip kertas jawapan & soalan KH, bukan main semua. Senyum tak boleh lebar lagi.

Penganugerahan Tali Pekeliling
Bukan main susah nak kena siapkan 7 buah buku log untuk dapatkan benda ni haih. Tapi best, sebab lencana berderet. Eleh, padahal baru 7 je. Dan mungkin akan kekal 7 sahaja.

Jejak Pandu Puteri / Friendship Trail
4 hari. 3 negeri. 2 ratus ringgit. 1 ratus ulang tahun penubuhan Pandu Puteri. Hehehe. Best kot jalan-jalan naik bas. Lepas tu main singgah-singgah pulak dekat Perak, Kedah and Perlis. Dan tak habis-habis makan. Nasib baik dengan orang-orang kehormat :D

Pn. Saamah bersara -Perlu sebenarnya en? Hahaha-
Ha'ah, macam perlu je eh? Tapi takpelah. Ada kenangan tersendiri jugak sebenarnya. Buat yang tertanya-tanya siapa itu Pn. Saamah, beliau merupakan bekas guru besar SMKS5WM. Oh almost terlupa, Aizat ada datang an, perform lagu 'Pergi' live.

Dubai holiday trip!
Kenangan ni baru je terukir di hati. Awal bulan Disember ni. Kan kita ada tulis post pasal ni kan jadi, tak payahlah nak cerita panjang-panjang sangat.

Majlis Anugerah Cemerlang
Hahaha. Dapat hadiah lagi tahun ni ya. Alhamdulillah. Baguslah, kiranya maintain lah tiap-tiap tahun dapat anugerah ni. Dari darjah satu sampai form 2. Oh lagi satu, lagi satu! Si kening tebal pun ada. Bukan main jerit bila jumpa Fadzila lepas tu.

Jamuan Akhir Tahun PRS Golden Moonlight Gala
Haha. Teringat sebelum pergi jamuan ni sibuk make up make up dekat rumah Amira dulu. Thumbs up ah mak andam kita ni make up sampai Azfar pun terkejut tengok Afieqah an. Malam tu pun boleh tahan indahnya :) Tapi yang pertandingan Amazing Race dua hari sebelum, mahu kasi orang sakit kepala jugak oh. Mana taknya, AJK yang seorang ni sangat berdedikasi :P

Perjumpaan Keluarga Ali-Aishah
Waktu second day raya kan? Haha. Memang best bila semua orang berkumpul sekali dalam satu acara rasmi. Next time kita buat lagi eh? Jangan lupa sumbang duit!

Sleepover dekat rumah Amira
Oh, lepas balik dari jamuan tu, kitorang balik rumah Amira. Kita, Areena dengan Umai. Mulalah Afieqah hyper semacam sampai ada yang terkejut, hehe. Tapi kan, besok paginya bila bangun, menggigil-gigil jadinya. Mak datin kita tu pasang aircond dengan kipas sekali. Dah lah kita tidur dekat tempat yang paling strategik dalam bilik tu.

Main basketball first time dengan Izyan
Izyan, akhirnya dapat jugak kan main basketball dengan Izyan. Dari awal tahun plan en? Hehehe. Tapi malam tu sakit kaki pula T.T

Buat tembikar dekat Jalan Conlay
Haaah, hari yang kita takkan lupakan sampai bila-bila. Thanks Fadzila, Izyan, Fatin, Umai, Haziq an Hanif. Hahaha.

Aktiviti-aktiviti lepas PMR
Rasanya melepak je lebih kan. Tak melepak main kad UNO. Sampai nak termuntah main sebab takde game lain. And hari yang kita semua join pertandingan-pertandingan aktiviti sains tu, korang ingat tak? Best kan.

Permit Pekhemahan
No comment sangat. It was among my frightful nightmare. Tapi yang dekat Tasik Titiwangsa tu agak best.

Amik UKKM dekat MRSM Muar
Ujian Kecenderungan Kemasukan Mara. Ya Allah, mahu meletup otak ni jawab soalan Matematik dia. Tapi terharu sebab ayah dengan ibu sudi hantar kita sampai ke Muar untuk amik ujian ni je. Lepas tu kita pekena ikan bakar an? Memang umph!

Bought Pinnochio
Sehari lepas PMR, terus tunaikan hajat kita yang satu tu. Okaylah, guitar murah je kan. Takpe, sebab kita pun baru beginner jadi takdelah membazir kalau jarang main.

Hari terima keputusan PMR
Ni sangat baru. Tarikh keramat semua budak form 3. Kalau waktu nak amik ujian PMR hati dup dap dup dap kan? Tapi bila nak amik keputusan dia, bukan dup dap lagi. Tapi dup dup dup dup teeeeeeeeeet. Aish, takdelah. Tapi memang laju sangat jantung tu. Tangan, dahi, semua berpeluh. Tapi Alhamdulillah, semua okey!

Comic Fiesta '10
Terima kasih banyak-banyak Amira Najwa sebab sudi teman. Tapi sayang sebab Amira dekat Europe jadi dia tak dapat nak ber-cosplay tahun ni. Takpelah, dia punya turn pula nak pergi Europe kan? Next year nanti dia revenge balik dengan Kaito.

Youth Fest '10
I can't really remember what happened on that particular event. All that's still fresh in my mind is the memory of watching a very cute boy playing foosball XD

AFF Suzuki Cup 2010 final
Benda ni yang paling baru berlaku. 29 haribulan yang lepas. No need to say much since everyone already knew about it. But again, tahniah Harimau Malaya. Malaysia Boleh! Malaysia Boleh!

Rayyann balik UK
Ini anak buah kita yang lagi sorang ni, awal tahun dulu dia kena tinggal dekat KL sebab visa dia tak approve. Jadi, parents dia terpaksalah balik UK dulu sebab 'sekolah' dah nak bukak. Lamalah jugak dia kat sini. Bila dia dah balik, semua rindu dia. Thanks to Skype, we're much closer.

Outing dengan Izyan dan Jai
First time outing dengan Izyan, second time outing dengan Jai. Kitorang pergi main bowling. Memang pelik bila sorang-sorang bola bowling jatuh, except Jai. Sigh. Mahu terguling-guling atas lantai jugak sebab tengok bola bowling tu jatuh GEDEBUK! Sampai macam tu sekali you.

Wedding Kak Anida
Memanglah kami ni cuma kawan adiknya sahaja. Bukannya tetamu kehormat. Tapi terima kasih kerana sudi menjemput kami. Antara hari terindah. Wah! Bayangkanlah ni baru wedding kakak Amira. Belum adiknya lagi. Kalau Amira punya weddinglah kan, mesti lagi indah eh? Hahaha. Mulalah tu impian lagi sepuluh tahun. And hari tu jugaklah first time tengok bakat Amira, bakal Mak Andam kita. Tengok, sampai sekarang mesti tersenyum bila teringat balik hari tu.

Hari Raya Aidilfitri
Raya tahun ni memang best sebab kami Kaz Family beraya di Johor. Missing in action : Family Kak Hidayah. Takpelah kak, next year kitorang beraya kat Nottingham pula ok.

Semua peristiwa-peristiwa yang menggamit memori ni, kita tulis tak ikut urutan. Randomly assigned. Asal mana yang pop out kat dalam kepala, terus kita tulis. Harap korang tak salah faham ya. Semua yang kita tulis kat atas ni, ada banyak kenangan dia. And ada kasi effect or impact dalam hidup kita. Eh, takpekan korang kalau kadang-kadang kita membahasakan diri kita ni kita. Jadi bila korang baca tu, faham-fahamlah bila kita cakap tulis kita, kita tengah maksudkan diri sendiri ok. Hmm, nampaknya ni lah entry kita yang terakhir untuk tahun 2010. Bila post next entry, tarikh yang tercatat cuma ada nombor 11 je, takde lagi 10. Blog Archive pun nanti akan bertambah lagi satu point. Redha no Afieqah. Oh, berbalik kepada post ini, kita tak sempat nak share gambar sebab nak kena pilih-pilih dulu mengikut kesesuaian. Jadi untuk post lain lah gamaknya ak.

Dear 2010,
Thanks for all the memories that you have engrave into my life. In turning fifteen, I learnt so many things that I never knew before. And I learnt many things that I should have known before. About life, friendship, love, appreciating and never stop believing. Thank you Allah for giving me this chance to live throughout the year. And thank you for giving me health so I can live life and breath. Everyone has finally reach the end of the road of 2010. Including me. The road that has no turning back. This has been such a rough year for me. But mistakes are the best life teacher.

Dear 2011,
I hope you're better. I hope I'm better. I hope Allah will always open my heart and never stop giving me hidayah. I hope he won't close my heart and let me lost my way. Away from Islam. Nauzubillahiminzali. 2011, you're the next stop after 2011. My another beginning. I'm turning sixteen next September. And only Allah knew what I'll be facing. May I have the strength. Insya-Allah, things will be better. Insya-Allah. 2011, I hope you won't turn into a nightmare. Left me behind the dark shadow. Ready or not, I have to face you. So, bring it on. I will try my best not to repeat the same old stupid mistake.

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You're amazing. Enough said,

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Sm:)e

This tweets had me smile for like, hours. Here is why ;

Actually, I'm a follower of her/him on this you-know-what site --sorry, it's a secret, shhh!--. Secret? Pfft. I hope you're just as intelligent as Sherlock and immediately finds out about "it". Hahaha. Actually, there's the clue already (-.-) Real smooth, fieqah. Sigh. I'm sorry. Back to the story. I really love her/his page. I mean it, of course. So, suddenly I came across an announcement telling that he/she has a Twitter account too.

Okay, this her/his, her/him is kind of a bugger ait? But what else can I do? I don't even know his/her sex . . .

Back to the main topic! As a fan, apa lagi, cepat-cepatlah follow Twitter account dia pula kan? Hehehe. I even compliment his/her account. And there's a reply. Woo hoo! Such a proud fan. Maybe that's all. That's what I'm trying to tell you and you and you. By the way, he/she even followed me back on Twitter. Thank yoooouuuuuuu!! Maaf ayat tertunggang-terbalik. Tengah tak boleh nak fokus sebenarnya tapi nak juga tulis entry. Sigh.

Skandar Keynes, *speechless*. Hehehe :D

Okay, GIFs are real addictive.

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You're amazing. Enough said,

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L

A boy like you doesn't deserve a girl like her. When will you ever realise that? I hate seeing you heartbroken. And to see you unhappy, made me unhappy. I always wanted you to know something. I like you. But I never really have the guts to tell you. I like you. I like you. I like you. Too bad you don't like me back. What can I do? I have no choice. But hear me say this one last time. I like you. Now, go for her. If that's the only way to make you smile again.

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You're amazing. Enough said,

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Propose,

Boy: You know what?
Girl: What?
Boy: Next time i see you, don’t wear that skirt again, it’s too revealing
Girl: Why? I thought you loved that skirt
Boy: Next time, wear something that reaches to your ankles
Girl: Ok whatever
Boy: A dress that reaches to your ankles.. and wear long white gloves that reach to your elbows
Girl: What?
Boy: Trust me
Girl: What are you trying to do? Hide me from everyone?
Boy: Do up your hair as well real pretty
Girl: Are You listening to what i’m saying? You’re so conservative, don’t choke me like this… Are you kidding me?
Boy: I’m dead serious.
Girl: You know i dont like guys who boss me around
Boy: … Wear a veil
Girl: … what?
Boy: Wear this ring too
Girl: ….
Boy: Marry Me

Cuteness!!! Seriously, if there's such a man exist, er, speechless already. Apapun, comel gileeeeer!

Source : Tumblr.

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You're amazing. Enough said,

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Remember Futurama?

Fine, you want me to confess? But first, some of my life puzzle is still missing.

Here, he said a bad thing to me which is a major slap on the face! And of course, I'm mad at him. I thought it was a good chance for me to forget about him. Remember, Futurama? But no, it was like he did nothing. Like he said nothing. Whatever. To think again, he is still a human being. I don't know if he is a friend of mine. But funny, my sister gave him a nickname. Ok, so I choose to forgive and forget and continue living. It went good until, yeah, things back to the time when it was half awkward and half not. But I still try my best to ignore him *grins* The truth is, I can accept him. Haha. Yeah, sappy. Until like I don't know, 5 peoples said something -I don't want to talk in details about this- and there it goes. Another crushed heart pounding inside my chest. It's time to forget about him, again -.-' Wish me luck for the thousandth time.

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You're amazing. Enough said,

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Yada yada yada

Some tips, for someone like me, to succeed in examinations :

1. Never hate other people.
2. Never fall in love with any people.

Trust me, this two things can mess up with your focus.

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Afieqah's new to-do-list :

1. Run away from him.
2. Get over him.
3. Run away some more.
4. Get over him.
5. Be friends.
6. Get over him.
7. Stop writing 'get over him' by now.

Agree? Well, like I care if you're agree or not because I am so so agree!

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You're amazing. Enough said,

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Am I sure?

I cant fight this feeling any longer And yet Im still afraid to let it flow
What started out as friendship, has grown stronger I only wish I had the strength to let it show
And even as I wander Im keeping you in sight Youre a candle in the window On a cold, dark winters night
And Im getting closer than I ever thought I might
And I cant fight this feeling anymore Ive forgotten what I started fighting for Its time to bring this ship into the shore And throw away the oars Baby, I cant fight this feeling anymore My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you Ive been running round in circles in my mind And it always seems that Im following you, girl Cause you take me to the places that alone Id never find And even as I wander Im keeping you in sight Youre a candle in the window on a cold, dark winters night And Im getting closer than I ever thought I might And I cant fight this feeling anymore Ive forgotten what I started fighting for Its time to bring this ship into the shore And throw away the oars, forever Cause I cant fight this feeling anymore Ive forgotten what I started fighting for And if I have to crawl upon the floor Come crushing through your door Baby, I cant fight this feeling anymore.

Sorry, just something I can relate to.
Haha. Actually, I really love this GLEE cast version :D

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You're amazing. Enough said,

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Sentimental heart.

Hi. It is kind of weird for me to write this down on public where anyone can read. But, here it goes. I'm writing this down because I cannot bare another minute keeping it in my heart. It's overloaded.

Hi, I've been waiting for you to knock on my door. Seeing you around makes my heart thump like mad and my breath turns shallow. I don't know who to blame, whether it's you or me. I know, I have promised to myself to turn 'futurama.' into reality but everytime when I thought I was over you, you came and melt my heart again. Remind me of why I fall for you on the first place. And everytime when I tries to run away from you, the more I'm attracted to you. I cannot say that my life is a puzzle. Well, actually yes, it is. I'm searching for my other piece which fits perfectly. But I cannot guarantee that the other piece is you. I should not put my hopes a little too high.

Hi, I love the way you smile. But I hate the sound of your laugh, sorry.

Hi, I love that we are totally opposite and shock to discover a few similarities.

Hi, I cannot stand keeping this alone anymore. I hope you understand.

Love, Afieqah.

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You're amazing. Enough said,

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Emm, hi. Hey.

Warning! : This post is extremely emotional. Leave, before you regret!

Too bad I can't remember what happened :(

It's now just another blurry vision. Boo! How could I ever forgot the best part of my life?!

All that I can remember is ; I embarrassed myself and now things are getting awkward. I never felt anything like this before. All the heart thumping, jealousy, curiousity and anytime-I-will-break-into-tears. Yeah, it sounds kind of emotional eh? Sorry.

But, the way he treats me is like a friend. Never ever in my life a boy consider me as one of their friend. So, this is kinda new. And now, how am I trying to run away again? Because every single time, I ended up laughing with him or my heart feels empty. One thing, I'm in love with the smile but I hate the laughs.

Dude, thanks a lot.

Yang kiri tu Afieqah, yang kanan tu awak. Ok? Comel kan.

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You're amazing. Enough said,

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Terrified.

Here how it goes. Last weekend was way better than this weekend. Of course last week is better. I fell in love and it feels good. But this week, nahh. Nothing's good, same old same old. You know about my dream right. I thought of naming my guitar Macbeth or Parmesan, if I do have one, on the first place. And I thought I'm gonna get it by yesterday but no, I have to wait for next week. Abang Nik, you better come home or else, I have to wait for another decade.

As you know, I'm hooked with this book entitle 'Baju Pengantin Mak Andam' karya Areila Sahimi, terbitan Kaki Novel. I, myself am shocked! At first, I cannot stand with the choices of words and the structures but amazingly, I'm used to it and it ain't that bad. Yup, I've changed. Not too drastic but yeah, changed. It may be simple but I think the word is kind of BIG!

Move on move on.

He has done it again. He chained my heart and I'm stuck on him. Like Stacie Oricco once sang : "I hate you, But I love you. I can't stop thinking of you. It's true, I'm stuck on you." Geez, I don't know who's to blame. He done nothing actually but I don't know. There's something about hmmm *thinks* I *shakes my head* Nevermind. I know I shouldn't put my hopes to high. He always like that, to everyone and sadly, I'm bummed. I thought I'm special but no, I'm not. I've asked "Is it embarrassing to like someone who's never gonna like you back" , he replies. I mean, dude! I'm talking about you. Can't it get any more obvious? Whatever man, I'm so over you. And that's another thing. When I thought I was over him then he came and BAMM! My heart melts again. Like last Thursday. He came, help my friend then left, doing nothing but look skinda macho. And before, after that long holiday, remember?. I never talk to him for awhile and it felt good. And I thought I was over him. But I turned to the wrong direction, saw him and thump thump.*Slaps* Back to reality. I talked to much, sorry :(

This Tuesday, I'm entering this debate or bahas competition along with Amira and Shermanjit. "Keruntuhan Akhlak Remaja Berpunca Dari Rumah." Mahu jadi pembangkang atau penyokong ya? So, I need lots of luck and ideas. HELP!!

Today is Ayah's Birthday :

HAPPY 58th BIRTHDAY AYAH! *air kiss*

And now, for closure : homeworks. I know I can do this. I am a survivor! Haha.

Love,
Afieqah

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143 is better than 1234.

Been doing this with Amira lately. Haha. It sounds a little gay-ish. But she'll reply it with 1432.

And I wonder if I try this on him, will he ever understand? What?! He loves numbers.

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Futurama-almost-there, not!

Everytime I thought I was over you, you came and melt my heart again. Like you never sliced or hurt it before.

I can't believe he helped my friend then leave, looking so hot.

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deja vu

My ears turned super hot and I believe I blushed. And not just a blushed, it's a super duper blushed. Scratch that. I mean, flaming. That's more like it.This is what happen when I talk to a guy. Or when a guy come closer. Just like last year, when 'he' gave me a gift. Such a bad wrapper he is but yeah, I turned red, like cooked lobster. "Thanks a lot'' guys. Helping much with the pair-me-up-with-a-guy-from-that-group.

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Fawesome? Grawesome?

Two great Saturdays in a row, wow! I just mean, wow! I hope next week will be as rawwwrrrsome as last week. Except for the illness part.

Let's see :

1. watched Dear John
2. fell in love
3. watched She's The Man
4. fell in love some more
5. dream with a hint of 'him'

I was kinda hoping Tatum was in it but, dapat 'dia' pun ok lah kan.

Plus, I upload an old photo of me and Jai. Feeling like crying because i missed it so much.

And please, I have an urge to finish Maine Squeeze by this evening. Can You Keep A Secret is next on the list :D

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Izyan dropped the ball, I rolled it backward.

17th April 2010

I've been waiting for this day for ages. You know how stressful life was a few weeks ago. And ahh, at last. A perfect day to put on your smile and red glasses *wink* You see,

1. It's Hari Anugerah Cemerlang -doesn't give a blast effect actually.
2. si-Kening Tebal was there, looking good as ever.
3. Screams a little when I met Orang Jawa because of si-Kening Tebal
4. Hang out for a moment with Cupbirubombpingpong and Joker.
5. Later, went to Wangsa Walk
6. Played bowling with Cupbirubombpingpong and Jonas
7. Then gone to Yamaha and bought a blue guitar pick.
8. Dreaming on owning a guitar
   
9. That night went to KLCC ; PC Fair
10. And that's what I call a perfect day to celebrate happiness.

Yeah, you guys, each and every one of you ;

THANKS FOR ROCKIN' MY LIFE

P/S : I have nicknamed almost everyone right. Figure it out yourself.HAHA!

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Captivated

Were sitting outside Under the stars Laughing so hard
I swear I could fly When youre looking at me Feeling so free
Were just to kids Were just reaching out Out for something more

Im captivated by you I cant overstate it, its true
Its all about your blue eyes Looking into my eyes
Captivating every part of my mind
Im captivated by you

Im a prisoner of war So caught up in your sweet love You captured my soul
Just to save me from myself Ive made my mistakes A victim of love
Untangle the chains that bind me Tell me am I wasting my time I wont wait forever
He took my hand and held it He said your all Ive wanted Just you and me in love together
And he said

Im captivated by you I cant overstate it, its true
Its all about your blue eyes Looking into my eyes
Captivating every part of my mind
Im captivated by you

the lyrics are very very very cute. but the melody is just okay.

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Fret not, serious Afieqah's just having a visit.

Today is Friday, 2nd April 2010. And I'm smiling :)

Until I thought about the future. Not for another 5 to 10 years, but tomorrow.

It's Saturday, 3rd April 2010. And I'm going to get stuck in school for half of the day. What's more? I am so gonna get my legs shaking and my armpits are going to get abrasion? Correct me if I'm wrong.

How about turning the frown back to smiles? I repeat, today is Friday. In my calendar, it's 'Lepak Day' for me and Izyan. The only way to connect some broken chains. I'm going to skip the exams part because, why do I have to let it stuck here forever? Maybe I should but not permanently.

Ok, me met Izyan and me smile. She waits for me and haha, I hide. No, kidding. Then, we use ahh, 'the back gate'. You know how I treat it like a . . . hell? No, maybe that's too violent. But I'm tortured enough. There I said it. Like my plan, I'm trying to run away from him.

Balik rumah Izyan nampak guitar kat depan mata. Geez, she's a mind reader. Or was I too predictable? Share some heart-to-heart talk with her and she taught me 'Your Call'. Oh god, simple oh lagu tu. And the strings are wow, nice. I mean, tak sekeras macam Abang Nik punya. Rasa macam nak buat banyak sangat benda, tapi tak sempat. Sedih je.

Btw, she asked to be friends with "him". Maybe, I should give it a shot. Who knows what good things waiting right ? *kening kening*

I want this event to repeat again. Oh please do. I feel so comfortable around her. Haha. She even falls in love with Facebook when she read my status. And fans page.

Mengapa Afieqah kini begitu skema ketika menulis? Untuk pengetahuan anda, Afieqah mungkin akan mula berjinak-jinak dengan novel. Demi prestasi Afieqah dalam bahasa Melayu.

Oh, tomorrow's Kak Nad's 24th Birthday. I'm planning on buying her something. She said about Diary Of A Wimpy Kid before and maybe I should buy it, as a gift. And maybe The Time Traveler's Wife or My Sister's Keeper. Well, that's for me. I want new books. Although there's a shelf full of unread books *grins*

Good news, Megan Grace is back :D

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